why am i afraid to use English in public

assalamualaikum to all muslim friends and Hallo!! to nonmuslim..

today i want share with you,why i afraid to use English in public.

firstly it because,my English are not good especially in my grammar and i also have a problem to pronoun a certain word.

not only just that, i also think when i speak English in stages, public and all my friends will laugh on me.

beside that,my confident level in English is low.causes of that,i am very afraid when who are talking with me because i think that they cannot understand what i want to presented.
i know English very important and it is a International language but i know why i still cannot speak English.
i think, i must start to speak English with my best friends or my family as a practice before i use it in public. This can help me to more confident with my self.
i beliave that i can speck English one day.